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Keep trying space cowboy...
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Gosh I am doing a update this early. Wow, I am surprising myself.
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Nothing important happened really. I am talking to women better than a week ago. My eye contact is making women smile at me more than usual. I get a bad feeling when someone looks down after I locked eyes though. Come on guys I am not that scary. It makes it hard for me to talk to a Women I scared off.
Women I got the number from has not texted me from one text I sent. Oh well, onto the next fish in the sea. She was cute but not intrested. Understandable.
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I had a talk with my room mate about the importance with sex in a relationship. Not a discussion of the minds but just random talk. He doesn't care about sex. He asked if I was a virgin and I just bluntly answered yes. He tells me sex is not that big a deal in a relationship. I liked that he told me that but hated that he might have thought I was so dumb about relationships. Like anyone he was just giving good advice and understand were he comes from. I have two heads to think with people. I just pay attention to both.
yes I never been on a date. yes I don't hug women a lot. yes I once held a single ladies hand. But I am not stupid and closed off. I was but I am more open than I was before.
We both agreed on..well I agreed but I now he is on the same boat in my stance. It is not sex that I think about when I talk to women. Well it is if your any guy but its not the most important thing to me, kinda.
To get close to someone that will not shove you away. Someone to laugh at my bad jokes. A person that does not take me for granted and I her. I work harder and harder to get that touch. The closeness to one another emotionally and physically. To get that I need to express myself to them. hold them,care for them, make them smile. Making a single women smile with something I done is the brightest joy I could have. To have a women so comfortable with me and have sex is a big deal for me. It shows me that we are comfortable with each other that we will go as far as sex. I will work hard to pleasure her. To make her feel all the emotion I can give her.
I can talk more about this and anything but I don't want to over load this journal. Women is a large subject to talk about for me.
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going to class as usual. Happy Mardi gras everyone. I don't really celebrate it. Not that I don't mind to celebrate a day to party its just a day like any other day for me. Ash Wednesday is coming up though. Like my mom always said:
"People go crazy at Mardi gras and the next day on Ash Wednesday they are forgiven for all of their sins yesterday."
I am giving up youtube entertainment. Basically anything on youtube that will distract me from my work. Does anyone want to sacrifice a bad habit for the fasting? Probably not if your not christian. The thing is, I see it as a time to sacrifice something to make me into a better person. Anyone can celebrate it. Heck, as a Mexican I have to celebrate it. Since most christian holidays are tied to my culture. Even if I was not christian I would end up celebrating christian holidays because I love and cherish those holidays.
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Meet up with a highschool body and talked about how much we changed. Can't believe I seen him. I am glad he is doing fine and doing okay in college. Talking to him reinvigorated me. Something I didn't know I needed but glad I have a stronger will to work harder. Hope his music career goes well.
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Nothing important happened really. I am talking to women better than a week ago. My eye contact is making women smile at me more than usual. I get a bad feeling when someone looks down after I locked eyes though. Come on guys I am not that scary. It makes it hard for me to talk to a Women I scared off.
Women I got the number from has not texted me from one text I sent. Oh well, onto the next fish in the sea. She was cute but not intrested. Understandable.
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I had a talk with my room mate about the importance with sex in a relationship. Not a discussion of the minds but just random talk. He doesn't care about sex. He asked if I was a virgin and I just bluntly answered yes. He tells me sex is not that big a deal in a relationship. I liked that he told me that but hated that he might have thought I was so dumb about relationships. Like anyone he was just giving good advice and understand were he comes from. I have two heads to think with people. I just pay attention to both.
yes I never been on a date. yes I don't hug women a lot. yes I once held a single ladies hand. But I am not stupid and closed off. I was but I am more open than I was before.
We both agreed on..well I agreed but I now he is on the same boat in my stance. It is not sex that I think about when I talk to women. Well it is if your any guy but its not the most important thing to me, kinda.
To get close to someone that will not shove you away. Someone to laugh at my bad jokes. A person that does not take me for granted and I her. I work harder and harder to get that touch. The closeness to one another emotionally and physically. To get that I need to express myself to them. hold them,care for them, make them smile. Making a single women smile with something I done is the brightest joy I could have. To have a women so comfortable with me and have sex is a big deal for me. It shows me that we are comfortable with each other that we will go as far as sex. I will work hard to pleasure her. To make her feel all the emotion I can give her.
I can talk more about this and anything but I don't want to over load this journal. Women is a large subject to talk about for me.
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going to class as usual. Happy Mardi gras everyone. I don't really celebrate it. Not that I don't mind to celebrate a day to party its just a day like any other day for me. Ash Wednesday is coming up though. Like my mom always said:
"People go crazy at Mardi gras and the next day on Ash Wednesday they are forgiven for all of their sins yesterday."
I am giving up youtube entertainment. Basically anything on youtube that will distract me from my work. Does anyone want to sacrifice a bad habit for the fasting? Probably not if your not christian. The thing is, I see it as a time to sacrifice something to make me into a better person. Anyone can celebrate it. Heck, as a Mexican I have to celebrate it. Since most christian holidays are tied to my culture. Even if I was not christian I would end up celebrating christian holidays because I love and cherish those holidays.
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Meet up with a highschool body and talked about how much we changed. Can't believe I seen him. I am glad he is doing fine and doing okay in college. Talking to him reinvigorated me. Something I didn't know I needed but glad I have a stronger will to work harder. Hope his music career goes well.
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Life cycle goes round
3 min read
Damn I lied last update. Sorry for the curse.
I want to update but get distracted by life. The good and the bad really.
I love my class and my teachers. History class is a blast but its getting tough on me. I have a crappy time taking tests like always. All is my fault. All I can do is go to some help session every Monday. Math is easy as hell. Teacher is a cute, kinda sexy lady. I always want to draw her clothes. Gosh I am such a perv, but hey its who I am. My psych teacher is a cute old lady. She has a perky attitude and a funny sense of life and I like it. Last is my anthro teacher. A nice guy but I needs to warm up to him .At first he felt kinda odd but I got used to it.
on to my social life:
I talk to everyone I can! The problem is that I can never keep in contact with people. I am always to cowardly to ask for someones number man or women. Talking to people is not hard but I feel like I can't get close to people. Whatever is my issue I will try to overcome it! My roommate is a good friend. Picked me up from a pyramid scheme. Gosh, I really wanted to get out of there.
I got a womens number last week! Out of no were I ask this cute women for the heck of it. she seemed nice when we talked for a second. Asked her out to coffee the next day on Thursday. She cancelled on me...she has kids here babysitter could not babysit. I have not talked or text her since, I would rather talk to her face to face. Maybe I'll ask her out some other time. Oh well, on to fish in that big blue sea! Ladies watch out.
Going to a club for film making and I don't hate it. Really I want to help people out with their own projects. I need my name on something! Bull though that I went to a club meeting on Friday and no one was their!
Last but not least I am 170 Ilbs with larger muscle than before. I lost at least twenty pounds since my workout started. Gosh I miss eating snacka and chocolate. Its bad that I ate a chocolate and a hamburger on my workout day but dang I loved it! I hate myself though I cracked yesterday and bought wizz cheese with crackers. I wanted to save them for a while but I ate it all. I ate it all! All in one day! Gosh it was so good. My tongue hurts like hell now!
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No freaking class today....
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No wonder everyone was partying last night. Turns out the school is closed today for martin Luther king day. I rode my bike to the chemistry building. Once I got there I found out the door was locked.Asked around and found out the campus is closed today. Man I am so mad at myself but whatever I can just do some homework today.
Hey if anyone noticed I haven't added a journal entry in a couple months. That and I have not added a single new deviation. It breaks my heart to but I will come around to it. I still draw on my computer in my free time.
I finished a semester of college! I would be happy about it but I failed my design courses. Not out of laziness but dealing with my own problems. Learning you have problems you didn't notice is great and trying to battle my problems is fantastic.
Still I want to try my best in this new semester. To get as many friends possible and trying to be more attractive to women.
These are not my only goals but their ones I want to work on.
More updates soon!
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No place like home away from home
1 min read
Hey everyone I just moved in to my College dorm. The college is nice, My roommate is a good guy and I like all the girls here. Can't wait for October though. Thats when I can start working out again. Doctors ordered me to not do anything too tough until my surgery for my hernia repairs fully.
College seems fun and all but I am worried about money most of the time. ON MY FIRST DAY TOO!!
Oh well as long as I get things handled I will be alright.
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O Boy!
2 min read
hello everyone, I hope everyone is enjoying a good spring. Weather here in Texas is all over the place. I guess mother nature is on her rag right about now. Its cold one day(60f) and normal the next(80f).
I am around here about everyday now. Learned how to manage my time a lot more. Maybe I give this website as much respect as my email. Whatever, I had a good prom, If anyone asked.
Drunk with the guys past midnight and slept at another mans house next to another man. Its not as homosexual as you think. The guy had only one bed for the two of us. The floor stunk of bear and other substances that I wish to not find out. So, we slept in the bed together.
.....Like a slumber party.Without the naked pillow fight I know all you girls do
I got accepted to two more colleges. One is SCAD(Savannah College of Art and Design) in Georgia and the other is UNO(university of New Orleans) in Mississippi.I just need to pick one.
I am around here about everyday now. Learned how to manage my time a lot more. Maybe I give this website as much respect as my email. Whatever, I had a good prom, If anyone asked.
Drunk with the guys past midnight and slept at another mans house next to another man. Its not as homosexual as you think. The guy had only one bed for the two of us. The floor stunk of bear and other substances that I wish to not find out. So, we slept in the bed together.
.....Like a slumber party.Without the naked pillow fight I know all you girls do
I got accepted to two more colleges. One is SCAD(Savannah College of Art and Design) in Georgia and the other is UNO(university of New Orleans) in Mississippi.I just need to pick one.
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